Ever done this before? You're having a bad day, something's weighing you down, ect. and a friend notices and asks if you're okay. My response? "Yeah, I'm fine."
Inside, though, I'm screaming, "NO! I'm NOT okay! I feel like my life is falling apart!"
Why do we do that? Why do we lie to ourselves and everyone else? It's like, that's the standard answer. "I'm fine."
Even after your Uncle or Great Grandpa has died and someone asks how you're doing, I can almost guarantee that the answer will be, "I'm doing okay." I know that was my response.
Or if you're going through a rough time inside, you don't let people know that you're anything BUT okay. It's like, people open up to you, give you the chance to let them share your burden, whatever it might be, and you won't let them.
Really?
Am I that stupid?
To refuse help when I KNOW that I need it?
WANT it, even?
We are all so broken inside, even though we don't want to admit it to anyone, including ourselves.
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So, being a girl, this is (sadly, pathetically) something I think about often. Anyway, these are just some of my thoughts on the subject. (And it's midnight, so they're kinda thrown together pell-mell. Forgive the numerous threads that may or may not make any sense whatsoever, or even tie off at the ends.)
You know, in the movies, the girl always falls in love with, and most often gets, the "pretty boy". The popular guy, the jock, maybe even just a good looking nerd. Being the type of gal that I am, I tend to notice those types of guys. Even get a 5 second crush on them as I walk past them for the first and last time at the grocery store. (I'm homeschooled, what can I say? The best looking guy at my school is my younger brother and... well, lets just not go there, ok?) But while I get crushes on those types of guys, I want to fall in love with a guy who's "pretty" on the inside. I mean, we always talk about that as a quality for girls, but I think it applies to guys as well. They should have honorable qualities, not just pretty features.
I want to fall in love with my best friend. Be it one of my guy friends now, or someone I meet later on down the road. I want him to be the one who always stood by me and held me up through the hard times. The one who asks me what's wrong, before I even realize that something is. I want to be able to talk to him about anything and everything. He should be someone that I trust and feel comfortable around. Someone who leads me spiritually and encourages me in my walk with God.
Just think of "Cinderella". Prince Charming falls in love with her while dancing, she runs off, and apparently he can't even remember what she looks like and has to go all over the kingdom with a shoe. Really? Doesn't seem like there's a lot up there in his noggin. Just my opinion, sorry.
And then look at the newer renditions of the Cinderella story? "A Cinderella Story: Once Upon A Song" in which the guy falls in love with her voice and dates her stepsister because he thinks it's her. ...but she still loves him. And the minute he finds out it's actually her, what do they do? Passionately kiss. Really? That dude's shallow. "Another Cinderella Story" (with Selena Gomez) where he falls in love with her dance moves... just wow. The only one I really like is "A Cinderella Story" (Hillary Duff) where she falls in love with the guy having no clue who he is, but knowing his personality. In fact, when she finds out who he is (the popular guy at school) she tells herself the whole idea is stupid and decides to move on. (Granted, they do end up together in the end, but only after he mans up about the whole thing.) So, still not the greatest story ever, but much better than the others.
And yeah, it'd be awesome if he looks "cute" (guys, that's girl-speak for "handsome"), but if he's the guy God has for me, I'll see him that way even if no one else does.
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Anyway... off my soap-box now. :) Feel free to offer your opinion in the comments!
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Yeah, so I'm starting my own blog. Maybe not anything interesting, but I've been having some random thoughts that probably wouldn't work for the Thought Box, so I'll post them on here. Probably mostly crazy stuff, and definitely no regular posting schedule. This is pretty much just an intro for anyone who happens upon this. Anyway... Yep. Happy July!
~Comma Queen
