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Friday, September 6, 2013

Arms of Love


Those of you who know me well probably know that I have a small scar right up next to my right eye and have likely heard the story of how it came to be there.  For those of you who don't, it happened one day when I was probably about four years old and I was skipping in circles around the inside of my Great Grandpa's house while being chased by my brother.  I happened to trip and hit my head right on the corner of the wall which was covered with glass tiles to create a humongous mirror on the wall.  There was no protective covering, so I got cut open by the glass.  About all I remember is tripping, my sister freaking out, being packed into the car to go to the emergency room, and then laying there on the table right before they gave me stitches.

But the one clear memory I have isn't the pain, or freaking out, but riding to the ER on my Great Grandpa's lap.  Mom had already been getting us ready to leave, so she just bundled us all out the door and Great Grandpa held me tight in his arms all the way there.

This is what I imagine being held in God's arms is like.  Those arms around me meant that even though I was hurt, everything would be okay.  Even though I was scared, he would protect me.  There was safety, and security, and love in those arms.  He wasn't going to let me go.

That's how I picture God's embrace.  We do something to injure ourselves -- be it a physical injury or a spiritual one -- and run to Him, and instead of just telling us off for getting into trouble again (though He does do that often enough, it's not all He does), He opens His arms wide and lifts us up, promising protection and healing.  Even though the injury may be of our own doing, He showers us with love and tells us that it will all work out in the end.

Arms that surround you and say, "Here, it is safe.  Here, you are loved."  

I never want to leave those arms.

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Photo Credit: Myself

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Imagine Dragons - Demons


Just recently got hooked on the song "Demons" by Imagine Dragons.  While I don't completely agree with all the lyrics (They say it's what you make/I say it's up to fate) I can relate to quite a bit of it...  Here's the song if you'd like to listen to it.



The part of the song that says "When your dreams all fail/And the ones we hail/Are the worst of all" makes me think of all the dreams I have that at times seem incredibly out of reach, as well as the friends I have that lately, I've felt, haven't been very close and almost seem to disregard me unless its convenient to them.

I want to hide the truth/I want to shelter you/But with the beast inside/There's nowhere we can hide - I have a horrible habit of doing this.  I try to protect those I love from what I'm feeling by keeping it to myself, but as a result, it just builds up and becomes even worse.


So they dug your grave/And the masquerade/Will come calling out/At the mess you made - And what a mess we all make by trying to cover who we really are with masks.  Is it better to be yourself, or who you think everyone would want you to be?  To be real, or to just be a frail, paper mask?

I think just about all of us could relate to the chorus:

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

Kind of goes along with my last post about covering up how we really feel.  I know I have a tendency to push people away at times to keep them from seeing my "demons" and to protect them from the "darkness inside."  Just wanted to share the song with you all :)

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